Thursday, November 29, 2012

Going Goop: 30Day Doodle Giveaway

Hi Friends & Family,

So its one of those nights where I cleverly drank tea and find myself awake at ungodly hours. I am coughing non-stop. Normally I will be happily awake being all smiley and happy, but tonight I feel the BIG MEH.

MEHHHHHHHH!

I found myself contemplating about life thus far. MEH!
About the things I have done. MEH!
About my health. MEH!
About my relationships. MEH!
About life in general. MEH!

I hate life at the moment, to be transparent authentic and open about it. I am burnt out again. SHUCKS!

I hate people. They are always so whiny, complaining, bitchy, judgy. Always saying bleh bleh bleh my life sucks, my boss sucks, my family sucks, my siblings sucks, my bestfriend sucks, my poop sucks, bleh bleh bleh!

I hate it that I m losing my health. I m pissed of pooping way more than I should. Although I should poop because I m pooping, but I am not supposed to poop that much. Dude I am having food poisoning from hell! I have been mega pooping on and off for 3 f***ing months!

I hate it I just pooped again.

I hate my lack of funds.

I feel my heart has been shattered into a million pieces with every step I take to give parts of me to this damn world.

Then I heard: "Gurl...who asked you too?"

My angel sounds and feels exactly like Queen Latifah.

And I am having one of those nights.

She is giving me a pep talk right at my ear.

Gurl, My Lady Queen, I think I m having a mental breakdown.

I feel like shit.

I am sick & tired of feeling like shit.

I got up to doodle and to listen to Andrea Scher & Koren Motekaitis on howshereallydoesit.com about What Does Courage Mean To You?

In a discussion the book 29 Gifts was mentioned. It is about Cami Walker who was burdened by an intensified struggle with multiple sclerosis, a debilitating disease that left debilitated and depressed.

Then she received an uncommon "prescription" from a South African healer Mbali Creazzo to give away 29 gifts in 29 days. 

As I was doodling and listening...my lady queen spoke again: "Do that...Child"

A tiny vision flashed in my head of giving away my doodles.

So my dear people, this is not a publicity stunt, nor is it open for comments or insults. I will give you the finger and follow through with this vision whether or not I am hallucinating or it is a Divine Intervention from Angel who does not want me to feel like poop.

In this point in time, I don't want to meet or speak to anyone unless I really have to. And I only will do the things I want to.

And I would like to giveaway 30 doodles, it happens to be one of the most precious things I can give from my heart. It happens to be where I find the most joy and play.

And I am going to follow the advice from this article http://www.oprah.com/spirit/Martha-Becks-Safari-Finding-Your-Purpose/1
and play my way back to awesomeness.

So now that I m done ranting. Here's what this all about.

  1. For the next 30 days, I will giveaway 30 doodles (1 per day). If you like my art or resonate somewhat in someway, I would really like to give a framed doodle. I will include the specs of each painting, the materials I used, the size.
  2. I have no idea who you are out there, but if you feel moved to receive it, please email me at ianjinyap@gmail.com
  3. Every doodle will be injected with the highest play that I can muster up and injected with all the good wishes and juju in the world.
  4. If you would like your own doodle that you'd like some elements in it, feel free to write in. I will do my best. Forgive me if it doesn't meet your expectations. Art will always be subjective.
  5. If you are outside of Malaysia, please give me sometime to post it to you.
  6. I will post up a rooster for those of you who are jumping aboard, so you can know the status.
  7. I am deeply grateful that you are helping me heal by allowing me to doodle for you. 
  8. Please feel free to share this, or take a painting on behalf of someone as a gift. Its yours once I release into your hands. 
Thank you for reading this post, I apologize for the ranting. I do really need to heal and will go through with this. I am taking the responsibility and moving forward.

I am not looking for sympathy, please play with me in my strength.

I will go missing for a while, and only respond to those who are involved in this giveaway and those I need to respond too.

Other that, I really need to some soul searching and find myself some hot tracks again. Please forgive me, if i am not to responsive in any way. I really am at a point where I m just going to listen to what feels right.

I hope to hear from you soon doodle receiver.

Love you all to bits,
Jin











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